depression day..

once in a month,I SURE FELT depressed.
everything sure think of negatively.nothing positive.
but after some time,there may be some thing change my mindset.

for eg today,when I SCROLLED fb and look at news feed,suddenly saw lots of background story of those photo.
first of all,after i look at secondary school photo,suddenly realised my distance to best fren in secondary fren become further and further away.
felt like no more closer feeling to talk to her.so sad to say,hav to build a wall between us,it is not a good feeling to say this,but i very sad that i cant break up tat wall just due to saw her reality.

do u believe in horoscope?cancer ppl is the one who not easier to believe in someone,once they trust someone,they will treat someone the best of the best.but if that someone betray their trust,cancer ppl will start to build a wall between them and get distance as far as they can slowly.

I am a cancer ppl,and so accurate for this statement so far i think.
i dunno u know or not,if u r my best fren,i will treat u as best as i can.but if u betray me,sorry that I cant trust u anymore.perhaps first time i can forgive u but cant forget ur betray.if second time still be the same,sorry to say tat,u r not my best fren again.

today,I just saw reality behind.
haiz.sad to lose one more best fren.

but nvr mind,u betray me is ok,i believe that one day u hav to ask my help again.
sounds like cruel,but it is like consequences of doing something bad.....

nice quote which read from novel

“他人的欺侮屈辱不了我。”
“反而是怒气，才会激发人心最丑恶的邪一面。”

It is true.
no matter how the others show sarcastic to u, it doesn't matter to u.
but if u r angry at something, anger will trigger the most ugliest part from ur part.

because of anger, some ppl will do something that will or will not regret at future.
some of them even sacrifice their own face or even kindness just due to angry at something.

so dun mind so much sarcastic from others.
the one who show sarcastic to u means they r jealous or envy u, it is not worth at all if u angry at her/him.
so just let it be and be calm.
dun trap by them n u will show ur negative side to others.

think wisely and calm down and also be patient.
words are easy but action is hard.
so hope u can control ur action and think before u move.

A real friend.....

Today saw a post, it's about a real fren.

'A real fren is not the one who occur long time ago, it doesn't matter wif the time duration.
Even he/she occurs quite late,but if they r ur real fren, they will understand u and even cares u.'

For me, I bet that I had lots of friends.
AS we know, friends differentiate into real, simple or even best friends.
It is same to me.

Today I just suddenly realised,
My best fren really understand me?

There is one case leads me to doubt of this. Is he/she my real fren? Is he/she cares me? Is he/she understand me?Is he/she using me?
Am I so stupid to use by others? Am I just cry n sit here quietly without let others know?
WHy such thing happens on me?

WHat make me so sad was just a sentence, 'Dont u have time for ur fren'?
If u knows me, U will always know my time always for my family.
If I really busy, i REALLY busy with some urgent stuff, even resting time also be sacrificed.
EVEN SLEEPING TIME ALSO BE SACRIFICED!!!!

But if my fren asked me to do something n my plan changes n affects me, I will think of alternative plan which still consider help my fren actually.
Just that if u really urgent to seek my help pls let me know. If u din say I don't know for that n I will always think of u have extra time for that.
But do u know? If I think of so much plan for u even I busy but U say that sentence, what will I think of?

Dont u think u r the only one busy? I am also busy with something but I still sacrifice my time for u too.
And even scolded by mum but still help u....
what am I expected for???
Just a sentence. dont u hav time for ur fren.....

And also, even my birthday u forget bout it.
Do u know?
I am not hope to get a birthday gift fr u, I am just wanna get a wish fr u.
It means that U still remember me and also cares me.
But honestly, I am quite sad cos most of my fren forgets bout my birthday.

AM I a person who easier to forget by others?
Sorry if u read this post and felt I may cares bout small thing, but honestly to be say, I am a cancer person who super sensitive even small matter.
So every sentence u say or every action u do I will sense it and know what u think of.
This time I really quite angry of my real fren who knows long time ago but din understand me.

If u r me,what do u think?ANgry?Sad?Forgive?
I may forgive others but not forget the case.....

future????

FUTURE?
what is future?

u know?I know?
Answer is unknown.

Due to 'unknown',everyone is curious.
What will happen for own future?
Good?Bad?

ONly then,ppl start to predict own future.
HOpe is good,even not good also must be good.
Then even some of ppl who dun hav humanity will cheat victims, cheat their money n feelings.
Real case??Yeah,it's real.

Ok,enough for story time.
Bek to future.
Do u wonder what is ur future?
Yes?No?
Everyone sure Yes. Undoubtly me too.

BUt do u know?U can create ur own future,everything that u feel cant do only be ur excuses.
And ur excuses block ur way to brighter future.
So starting from this moment, stops to think of Excuses.

Start to step inside future that u hope to have.
Start to build ur own confidence.
Start to avoid any excuses and negative thoughts.
So,what r u waiting for??
GO TO CREATE UR OWN FUTURE!!!!

PS: I am on the way ady,which hope to finish my degree life soon. Then will create unknown and even brighter future that u nvr know....

Have you think of your own future?????