dun worry.I'm fine.

after a while,I'm be fine.

What's this about?well,actually it's related to my previous post.thanks to my frens who just asked me y u so emo,or anything happen to u???especially thanks to my boss,even her birthday also memujuk saya,solve my problem....a lot of thanks to her and my old fren too...finally,my mood is changed to normal and i noe I can be stronger than I'm expected.

as my boss said,u hav ur own life and no nid care about 'them'.....yea!!!it's correct!I will apply it into my life and be strong too....

Just found a statement from one article:

5. 莫名其妙的孤独

不管达观还是拘谨，无论高贵还是卑微，谁都可能相遇孤独的感觉，
常常深深地萦绕在不为人所知的寂寞的情怀中。

“其实是知己难求”

very suit to me and I noe this one can be applied to the others too...for whom had problem about friendship, U shall read this thing-fren is very hard to find. that's y sometime u will feel alone no matter who u  r....

so,i'm learnt from this:dun care the fren so much except real fren for u...no matter how many difficulties that U all had experienced, it will be changed after u all stayed further,so pls appreciate ur 'reAL' fren...if u really found them,u r very blissful and shall appreciate them in ur life.

Just a while, got 1 fren tat nvr find me except now it's closing to final exam,take tips from me...wat the...no nid so reality one....but doesn't care her la,i just wanna 'explode' here only...XD

I can tell u,I'm found my real frens and felt very blissful here.SO i will appreciate my frens that really helped me a lot. Honestly, for my real fren that I had, U all r very blissful too,cos I will protect u all..lol...ss here?ya,but it's fact for me and u too...u will noe it whether it's true or not. But sorry if I said something that made u felt unhappy, sometime i'm too rude or not so sensitive one,sure will make u felt angry or unhappy. so pls forgive me that I'm just an imperfect human, sure  not perfect at all de...paiseh here too....

lastly, wish our friendship forever!!!!:-)

sad mood

few mins before,I'm really crying.there's no joke here,tears really came out and I felt all negative feeling in my heart.perhaps some photo remind  me that I'm alone,or even that I wanna bek to my hometown!!but wat for?I stil hav things to do here,can't just leave here so easily.Honestly,when I stil write for this blog,i stil can't control my mind,just thinking of these 2 things-family and my home.MY REAL HOME!!!!!
dun be so surprised and I really felt those feeling in my mind now....I really wan to cry now and dun wan write anything liao~~~

sleeping day~~~

2day should be a sleeping day,felt like wanna sleep for whole day~~~not continously,unless is like when u felt sleepy,then just lie on bed,sleep!!!!but then now,I just doing my lab report althought felt a little bit sleepy~~honestly,actually I'm just slept for 8hrs yesterday and 2day just took 2 hrs nap,but dunno y stil feel sleepy now...haha..mayb previous 2 days slept less than 4 hrs,and din took nap on evening,so felt sleepy for 2day lO~~~~
ok.....for me and sure,just not this topic la....suddenly felt like wanna express out many thing,but dunno start from which topic~~~~got any idea???replied through my chatbox there,perhaps i will start to tell u the thing tat u wan to know~~~

confusing......

aiyo,how come I always repeated those thing one?-feeling.....I also felt bored,but...what for?I'm just a human,hav feeling and thoughts.no matter how i'm changed,even pretending cool,but stil hav emotion or feeling la~~~
ok,confusing here sure my feeling la....but wat feeling?happy,sad,nervous,envy and so on~~~haha...I'm felt like chatting nonsense here,dun wan start y real feeling~~~
If u r my fren,can guess for it.But I think u knew it.XD
confused for my feeling,sure related to something or someone.but then,it's good or bad?Mayb I will change my thought again,not same thing lei...who knows?u?me? or others?even I also dunno mine one la,u?impossible...haha...this's seems like so proud,but it's fact,u very hard to guess mine one,cos my mind like common ladies' mind, always changed thought like the sea lO~~~
this post like nonsense,but it's too complicated,i dunno how to express it out only.
finally,giv u a smile. :-)

secret for my feeling....

actually in my mind nw,got 2 feeling : sad and love feeling.

• sad-actually everybody defined sad for different meaning, but for me, sad is an expression tat can release out for the thing that I felt unhappy. most of my fren said ah heah,u r very happy one,or positive person. But honestly, when would u saw i'm sad before? the ans is no!!!! why I can be the person like tat?well,actually got story or some history of it.During childhood, I'm a person tat easily to cry. But during high school, I knew I should be independent, then I told myself, smile always and u wil hav fren more. I dunno y tat time my mind will pop out this idea, but tat time I just wanna have the fren as much as i can!!! during lower 6 ,i'm stil a person tat very crazy,even crazier than now, and always laugh like crazy person. But during half of lower 6, I become a person tat not easily to cry anymore, lagi not easily to cry,due to some sad thing-my father's death. I saw the scene tat he's passed away and tears reli came out on the spot and nvr stop until my sis and brother's bek~even tat time was midnight,I'm bek home first and my mum's washed the clothes immediately cos she knew got a lot of thing to do on the next day for funeral, I stil cry in the bed and dun wan let my mum noe!!!!!after my father's buried time, I told myself,I din cried again except anything tat related to my dad and any song tat can make me think bout it!!!! this's feeling that others dunno. if u r my fren, dun told others for this and keep secret for me, I will very appreciate for it.
• Love feeling-well,this's a contradiction thing wif previous feeling. I'm a person tat easily to love or like others..but then,actually I just mixed up 仰慕 and like feeling always...Most of my fren said curious for my love story and always asked me,'Who did u like?' or 'I felt u like who,who ,who'...this's impossible for me.I'm a crab,always hide my feeling as well and once i knew u noe about my feeling, sure hide my feeling more deepy. This's my protective layer forever. Unless there's a person to break my wall and I can tell u, U r dive into my heart successfully~~~~honestly, in the school or any place tat I stepped before, I sure like the guys one. But the question is,who is the guy tat I like the most??Well, this one i should keep secret for this,cos this's blog,I wouldn't said one.XD

PS:if u wAN TO noe who I like,pls contact me personally~~~~lol...:-)

what's wrong wif my stomach??

wah...how come these few days kept on doing big business???
so tired and like....hate my stomach!!!perhaps this topic very disgusting, but this's my feeling about my stomach.
As I known, I'm a person that easily to vomit out everything once I ate too much since small.
But after seek a tabib, my stomach is getting better but then if after ate curry or drink ice water, sure stomach din felt well again.
Once again, hav to seek another tabib to treat my stomach. But luckily god blessed me, my stomach is getting well than before.
but I dunno how come these few days  not feeling well, always went toilet.
Am I too stressful? or too tired? ate too much??? or got something wrong wif my stomach...
WIshed everything will be fine after 2day!!!cos i stil hav final exam to go after this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God bless me...THANKS!!!

which character should I be?

well...this question I'm asked many times for myself:'which character should I be?'.....The ans is I shall be myself, no wonder kind,funny,crazy, bad or watever. I shall be the person that i wan to be, doesn't care wat the others said. Perhaps there's an advice to me that I'm too fake or reality, but sometime the environment is forced me to do so. The most important point is I should not become the characters that I doesn't like, especially those behaviour like businessman. then,am I a person that always followed others??? Sometime it seems like to be, but then I'm felt like I too stubborn, learnt from my father-stubborn if there's the fact that can support u. Do not become a person that is too stubborn until others hate u. If U r tat person, then i can tell u, 'U R fail in this exam!!!!' It's seems like nonsense, but just sometime I felt like wanna expressed out those feeling from my heart, It's true, can be as a lesson for our life. No matter wat the people said, U shall be the person that U wan to be.
Set ur target and keep on to do it. DUn give up and u will regret forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeahoo~~~relax before join into the hell

yes!!!!can rest well and relax before going into the hell-final exam....Must eat,play and sleep secukupnya before stress is coming....home sweet home~~~always love this statement forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yeah~~~dun wan go bek to kl lu~~~XD

suffering day again after bek to kl~~

haiz....so tired a~~~just celebrated my birthday in my hometown,when bek to kl,hav to fall into hell again.doing assignment and study for midterm!!!!ah!!!wat  a sudden changes for me!Just bek from hometown,can't rest and I just sit in front of my com to do report and assignment,haven rest pun~~~thought i'm robot meh???Sibeh cham de lei.....later i will become like zomby and jump here and there.somemore will emo if saw someone.ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!felt like dun wan be here again!wanna enjoy for my vacation and eat,sleep,play!!!!!!!!!!!!!!heaven,i'm coming  for u~~~dun left me!!!!

glad to hav birthday celebrations from my coursemates and best fren~~~

Today i'm very happy cos my frens celebrated for me~~~it's really first time for me lo~~~reli touching and got a memorable experience...I really dun hav such experience in my life...Dun believe??It's true~~~mostly my best fren just gave presents to me,nvr celebrated birthdays for me...SO,very thankful to them and would not forget them forever~~~Friendship forever~~~~jiwei,carol,jia hui,anna,karis and karl~~~XD