holiday ends soon...

omg....holiday is going to end soon,but i still in holiday mood....2day is independence day,selamat hari merdeka!!!but there was no celebration or surrounding full of tat merdeka feeling~~~haha..perhaps cos raya too ba,they ignored it too....and I felt like wanna stayed at home only,once again,dun wan bek kl......always like tat,like child,but wat to do?once u left home,those feeling will always occured in ur mind.nvr mind,when reach kl,then suit the mind again..aiyo,stil struggle tat wanna but external dvd rom for my netbook or not...very expensive lei,rm100 something,if my brother or sister noe i buy it,sure said I very rich ah??but sometime felt like useful,sometime just wanna watch dvd la,just afraid addicted to it only,now still struggle.......think,think,think!!!think wisely~~~~^^
and these 2 days so hot,no raining ady.....weather is changed lo~once I arrived ipoh for sem break,everyday sure raining one,but these 2 days really hot,no raining at all....super hot~~~when i wan to go out,sure raining,but now,dun go out,then hot,hot,hot!!!!!!

headache ah~~

until now,still can't find for coop lei....especially those lab one,cos they r look forward for 3rd student..me,just 1st yr student,just ignored from them...I'm so worried now and think shall I change my own decision to hav other job instead of work in lab one??struggle for many days and not so enjoy holidays due to this problem....haiz...no time for me ady cos will bek to kl soon and very troublesome if can't find it before i leave my hometown....so so so headache......

but got other lesson from my movie tat I watched,will u keep ur own fire for something as long as u r compete for it???and could u noe ur limitation and can beyond of ur limitation or not???If u can do these 2 thing,u can become superman or superwoman ady...and can do the thing that unexpected.It's quite challenge for us and I would like to try it now for my coop and my studies....So,I can just can say,there's was good and bad for the matter at the same time,no matter how u feel so sad or disappointed for something,there was a road for u all.like god open the way for u,but now we shall create a road for ourself,not just depends on others,cos if wan to success,must be do it our own,not others.when u  r done for something,u can enjoy the happiness and satisfied for the thing that u have been done.So.I just can tell myself,there's a new road for me-new chance!!!!dun give up and the block will not occurred!!!!must keep on our own spirit and just do it without any regret~~~~

geram and glad

ah!!!!2day went to buy lunch,and it's raining!!!!u din heard wrongly!!!IT's raining once i wan to step out from my house.....then once i bought and reached home to hav a bath,there's no more rain and sunlight  was out!!!!!!!!!!!!AH!!!!played played me lei.......so so so geram!!!!!!

haha....but got another good news for me la,tat was,tv is repaired ady...yes!!!!can watch tv and watch drama by using dvd player to connect to tat tv!!!!syok syok!!!!nice,nice!!!!tat's was different feeling for me 2day-geram and glad la...hahahaha....and I always felt sleepy here cos everyday raining here!!!it's a fact!!!Once i bek ipoh,everyday also raining,tak kira morning or evening,must raining everyday one!!!!nice!!!everyday hav a nice sleep,just troublesome if i wan to go out on daytime!!!like today!!!!!haiz...nvr mind,once I can sleep well,then I forgive it ady....XD somemore,TEZUKA in prince of tennis very handsome lo~~~and super cool!!!!this anime not bad and u will watch it continuously if u like sport or any competition.If u really felt bored,just watch it to release stress or 'meluangkan masa lapang'!!!!!hahaha...I'm doing it everyday so I din felt bored although nothing to do everyday....eat,sleep,play,watch tv,on9 too~~~this's my route for everyday but I din felt bored cos no more chance for me to do such thing if I go bek to kl to fight again~~~XD So,what to wait???just become sleeping pig and lazy koala bear too ba....^^

2 things in my mind

First,it's a super glad feeling cos went for vacation of 1 dAY trip to Cameron Highlands....Bought a lot of strawberries,vegetables and some plants for plantation...haha...enjoyable day lei;...since long time din outing wif family for vacation ady..so appreciated it since after my stressed and suffered final exam.....and then i stil hav 2nd round,for praying of ancestors and deceased elders....it's super tiring one cos hav to stand up for few hrs,then walked when those  尼姑prayed......and then can't took umbrella even  raining heavily...super super kesian and tired....but what to do???it's a ceremony-超度会....like prayed for those deceased people,let their road to heaven to be more smoother...XD  still ok la,cos every yr I went wif my family one...

2nd,it's a lesson that I learnt after watched 'prince of tennis'.....that's 'a fire is inside our heart'~~~everybody's heart....unless u dun hav heart one,correct way should be mind la,but I preferred to name as 'heart'...haha...if U burn up this fire,u will do the thing din like u expected,will be more 'explosive'....haha..means the result can be better as unexpected~~~this's a super good way for u to grow faster and well...but sometime u need the motivation for it,sometime other people,something or even yourself!!!!but how we noe the fire inside our heart??there's need some time or even fate to make it...sometime people can't burn it up by themselves,nid some motivation one....like me lo,sometime I felt tat I dun hav fire,like too soft or like water,dun hav fire at all...SO I noe I still need some motivation or people to encourage me for me to burn up the fire inside my heart!!!!!IS IT POSSIBLE????yes,it is!!!!!!!!!!But I noe my fire will be coming soon for burning it up...IF it's burning,means there's a different me!!!!yes,u din heard wrongly..IT'S DIFFERENT ME!!!!!how to u noe the difference???U just wait ba,same to me,I still lack of some motivation la...haha....XD so,now,I just nid to do myself first.If time's up,then will be my turn to change myself,or even become 'advanced form' of ah heah!!!everything will be change and U will c a different type of me~~~^^

selesanya.......

wah..when the wind is blew to ur head,face and ur body,u can feel there's a feeling like u flying following the direaction of wind....it's really imaginative...u can feel it too~~~BY:riding a motor......during tat time,u r exposed to the surrounding,if there's environment like village,so comfortable and so greenish,when u r  riding a motor,and speeding there,really comfortable and selesa...every stress or worries will be disappeared and forgotten....really,really.....BAGUS!!!! ^^
just now repaired the motor tat had not been touched for few months,mostly just me be the rider lO~~~haha...plus the road tat nearby my house very suit to ride motor,not like big city-crowded with cars and other vehicles,can release stress and my thought during the time riding a motor lo~~~ XD
SO,WHAT TO WAIT???if hav a chance,u should ride a motor or ask any of ur fren who's a motorcyclist,u can become a person who free of ur mind temporarily too~~~~hahaha..^^

fly to sky,fly to sky~~~

means FREEDOM!!!!totally freedom!!!!free from exam-hell,stress,not enough sleep,nightmare~~~~hahaha...finally can sleep well after 2day~~~mayb due to stress,even  in dream,also dreamed '地狱' woh~~but in my dream,just got 10 floor,not 18~~~cos rumour there is 18层地狱la...mayb is sressed,mayb is got hint inside tat not 18th floor lo~~haha..nvr mind la...just a dream~~
now I just nid to watch tv,on9,read storybook,play and hang out that I want~~~syok,syok~~can imagine these 2 weeks can rest and relax well~~~my bed and entertainment,wait for me ya~~~hahahaha... :-)

ok!!!microbiology,u win ady!!!

One sentence for my comment: microbiology,u beats me again!!!i got not enough weapons to fight u now!!!really gila sini!!!

good news,bad news.....

good news was I will have extra holidays for sem break,can bek kl so late~~~~SEP I bek lo~~~better than end of aug,bek to hell again...XDsyok nya,can experience more than 2 weeks holidays finally.....haha....and for sure,rest for my mind physically and mentally...no more memorise and figure out wat to study later....or nid to do homework something like tat....blissful!!!!!'xin fu'......peaceful~~~^^
bad news was....I haven't finished the studied which will held on this coming week and next week..This time final exam really challenged our mind,kept on made us memorise or studied for the exam,no time to rest at all...really crazy lo~~~really think us like a robot,really no time to rest one...I dunno how to survive for 1 yr lO~~~~really 1 yr~~~~really awesome for me cos tahan for 1 yr ady....especially for me like impatience at all one.......how???haha..u asked me i also dunno la....another bad news was I realised dunno how to start my microbio....no tips was the reason,but main reason was too much material nid to study,later my brain really overloading,the plugs are mixed up ady.....completely insane~~~~XD
but wat to do??once again,hav to remind myself------
GAMBATEH!!!!stil hav 1 week then u can enjoy at home!!!!!so,,,,,,HANYA TAHAN UTK 1 MINGGU SHJ!!!!!'ren'~~~~~patience~~~~and then heaven,i'm coming......

my mind.......IS BLANK!!!!!

caused of what??????????sure IT note la...so complicated and wonder y we nid to take it...wasted my money and time here.but what to do?Once u r stepped inside this trap,u can't escaped anymore.U can escape,but sacrifice something---money lo~~~~
boring,boring,boring!!!!!!hungry,hungry,hungry!!!!!!these 2 words are very common during final exam~~~~no more entertainment,no more food,no more sleep,no more play!!!wah...like hell,man!but honestly,it's better than u work.during working time,no more enjoying of life....all thing seems like so fake.U will noe it if u r worked before....tat time really not hell,it's kubur for human life.....

AH!!!!!final exam,u r my great great enemy now!!!U made me no enjoyful life here,just preparing for the war with u....Must prepared well before c u....AND my lovely bed.................oh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~very miss u,baby~~~wanna lie on u and just sleeping like a adorable pig.....syok nya.......
dreaming high here.....dream-ing........'dream high'........................higher dream for me for this moment!!!!!1

my lovely bed......

oh...it's a suffered time for me...cos final exam,even I'm lie on bed,just remind me watever the thing tat I studied...Supposely I should have a nice dream on bed,not just think of web,internet or endocrine system lo~~~~I shall think of the dream tat I wan......and shall sleep like a pig too~~~~Not always insomnia these few days lo.....very tired lei...but no 'tired', no gain.....haiz...really 'mao dun' in my thought....perhaps I'm a sentimentalist o~~~~
therefore,I go to watch 'dream high'....nonsense.......

lol....actually it's just a reason for me to curi tulang only....but once i watched dream high,I really felt I wan to be a character inside this drama....They r really hav a dream inside their mind,no matter how many difficulties r they had,they still can solve it...Surely sometime wil be tough challenge for them,like friendship,money and so on,but they still can move on with support of their beloved family or frens....I would like to become them,kept on to apply it in my life and my dream not just a dream,wil become a real thing!!!!FACT!!!!my dream must be advanced to become a fact~~~~u dun spoil my plan~~~~I will fight with u one~~~hahahaha....XD

ice kacang feeling

First.wan to complain here....2day angkasa condo is experienced for power outage 3 times....what????spoilt my plan to study.and on noon time-2nd times,tat time I felt sleepy lei...but hor,I just straight away went to sleep and then 4pm something got the electricity liao....haha..I'm a sleeping pig ma,somemore if u felt cold,then cold lo,sure can sleep well de..hehe...XD
Second,felt sleepy all the time.perhaps studied the subjects all the time,or can be said tat previous few days had not enough sleep,always can't sleep well,so made me felt sleepy whole day....

third,lesson now....and it's contains very deep meaning here.'A human is a child all the time.'It's nonsense????Or u wanna debate or disagree wif it??yea,i knew y u felt like disagree wif it.cos u said adult will be more mature and how come be the child all the time??Ans:YES,u r RIGHT,but......do u noe wat's a meaning for a child?DUn talk about children nowadays,they r more mature due to the chemicals or the food tat they eat.If the normal child,they r naive,childish,cute and many good means for them.I felt like human be the child forever....although their body is grew up or mature physically and mentally,but they r stil a child.The environment just forced them to grow up,no matter how mature they are,they r stil a child.Cos inside their deep heart,they stil keep a naive or pure heart, but the surrounding are forced them to 'sink' their pure heart inside the deep heart.SO,they are acted mature and their mind seems like so mature on the surface.DO u KNOW IT???A human can be show their pure heart through love ,friendship or in front of family....U DIN BELIEVED IT???haha...perhaps u will know it when next time u fall in love,had a real fren or ur family members care u~~~for me,I'm wanted be  a child all the time,just play,eat and sleep....no nid to think anything   and din care the reality tat I faced all the time.no worries and i will stay longer than I can.So actually I always jealous to the children for their lifestyle and lifehood,no pure and no worries.....but I knew it's just a thought,as I said before,no more pure heart,just act mature.....where's my pure heart tat I wan???but if u knew me,sometime I will show it..just c u all got pure heart or not lo~~~~dun hide ur pure heart until very deep or even damage it when u out for work or study.......u can just keep it but dun destroy it....

study mood

after shopping secukup-cukupnya after my m'sian study final,my mood to study should be coming bek lO~~~~dun go far away from me~~~next week I very nid u one,dun left me alone o~~~~haha...
felt very tired for my leg and mind now,but sometime felt guilty cos outing for whole day just for those entertainment,but hor,I'm very rebel one, will do something although felt tired AT ALL....not like u felt tired,just fall asleep on bed or just sleep~~ME was----study when felt tired~~~but sometime sure c mood la,cos I felt like I"m very moody person,doing something depends on mood one.So,I nvr giv reason tat done the job very late although felt tired,sure just do it first,then edit it lo~~~
aiyo,how come my topic so far one??haha...2day m'sian study was very easy,sure can pass de....and then,study for my next paper----IT!!!!then later c start which subject for my study lO~~~C MOOD AGAIN....hahahaha....XD

new lifestyle on aug

finally,the tasks are done before final.everything will be change to normal and same to my feeling,no more negative feelings-angry,sad,emo and so on.Perhaps there still hav stress behind,cos final exam is coming soon.But I believed that I can handle stress well before it's 'bullied' me~~~lol...
FINAL EXAM,I DIN AFRAID U PUN,COME MA COME LA.BLEK......;-)
jia you or gambateh or cheer up to me and my frens too~~~~dun give up easily and this final exam will be another challenge or obstacle for us.But,we can do it!!!!!!just do it!fight it! or even punch it!!!!!:-p
FIGHTO,FIGHTO,FIGHTO!!!!!
NO energy??find me la...I'm rechargeable person, always full of energy.or if u can't find me,just read my blog,sure u become rechargeable too~~~~hahahaha...^^

Am I wrong or not?

Honestly, sometime I doesn't mean wanna screw up someone or scold people, but their action always made me can't tolerate wif them.....Like assignment, i always scold someone,cos she's always asked me to do last min work one!!!!hey,u can rest and I CAN'T LEI...u noe what?I always done the work at midnight and sent it to u before the 2 days before deadline.I noe 2 or 3 times I sent it 1 day before deadline,but tat time I'm really busy.Mostly I will send those work to her asap one, u just nid to compile the thing.What to busy for??ANd,I hate the most one was, U CAN SLEEP EARLIER THAN ME!!!! and I just nid to rush thing here~~~hey,my mistake was rushed my work at midnight,but always the earliest to send them to u~~then,u stil ask me to rush for the thing???then I no nid rest la???Ok,fine.It's almost the end of this sem ady.Nvr mind.
But now it's deadline of assignment, u stil ask me to rush for the thing???I had rushed up all my work ady,and tried to add in the extra info cos my part was very hard  to find.... I'm tried my best ady. AND,i got told her tat this week I will disappear,cos this coming thurs I have final exam!!!!I noe u din hav this subject,but I nid to study although it's very easy for all of u~~~I just wanted to [pass the subject only,nid to study or revise one!!!!I"M not A GENIUS!!!I'm just a human!!!!!!!are u need me to complete whole assignment or lab report for u????This time,I really felt angry of her.No matter wat reason did u gave,honestly I can't tolerate wif it.ALways said u sick.ok,it''s fine.once or twice I stil can said ok,but almost everytime lo~~~last min threw the unsolved problem to me~~~like now,said sick then can't went to check result.Ok,i noe  u r wanted to rest,I let u rest on weekend.2 days not enough???and,it's suppose to finish asap if u r sick always...U noe wat.mayb i will sick like u too,then i always rushed up everything before the deadline.BUT U  R THE PERSON TAT ALWAYS GAVE REASON TO ME TAT CAN'T FINISHED IT!!!!haiz....so bad for the feeling to her liao...I'm agreed tat my work is worse than u,but y u nid to do like this???AM I trusted u wrongly???or AM I very easier to bully by someone???then u r bullied me??