felt so blur for my future now.....

this's due to no any news from the coop thing,or  even from cecs....seems like so blur now,tried for so many company,but they r asking me to wait only,or said will call bek u later.means there was unsuccessful la...really felt 100% disappointed here.means I become pessimistic now.no more thinking positively now....so down?yea....when u r rejected by more than 50 times,then u noe my feeling ady.got 1 sentence very true:nobody can feel how ur painful.....i'm suffering in this feeling now...really nobody can understand wat am I feeling now....if I just wanna work,can hav chance,but when related to internship,people r more reality....really felt hopeless here.....haiz.....who can help me????