secret for my feeling....

actually in my mind nw,got 2 feeling : sad and love feeling.

• sad-actually everybody defined sad for different meaning, but for me, sad is an expression tat can release out for the thing that I felt unhappy. most of my fren said ah heah,u r very happy one,or positive person. But honestly, when would u saw i'm sad before? the ans is no!!!! why I can be the person like tat?well,actually got story or some history of it.During childhood, I'm a person tat easily to cry. But during high school, I knew I should be independent, then I told myself, smile always and u wil hav fren more. I dunno y tat time my mind will pop out this idea, but tat time I just wanna have the fren as much as i can!!! during lower 6 ,i'm stil a person tat very crazy,even crazier than now, and always laugh like crazy person. But during half of lower 6, I become a person tat not easily to cry anymore, lagi not easily to cry,due to some sad thing-my father's death. I saw the scene tat he's passed away and tears reli came out on the spot and nvr stop until my sis and brother's bek~even tat time was midnight,I'm bek home first and my mum's washed the clothes immediately cos she knew got a lot of thing to do on the next day for funeral, I stil cry in the bed and dun wan let my mum noe!!!!!after my father's buried time, I told myself,I din cried again except anything tat related to my dad and any song tat can make me think bout it!!!! this's feeling that others dunno. if u r my fren, dun told others for this and keep secret for me, I will very appreciate for it.
• Love feeling-well,this's a contradiction thing wif previous feeling. I'm a person tat easily to love or like others..but then,actually I just mixed up 仰慕 and like feeling always...Most of my fren said curious for my love story and always asked me,'Who did u like?' or 'I felt u like who,who ,who'...this's impossible for me.I'm a crab,always hide my feeling as well and once i knew u noe about my feeling, sure hide my feeling more deepy. This's my protective layer forever. Unless there's a person to break my wall and I can tell u, U r dive into my heart successfully~~~~honestly, in the school or any place tat I stepped before, I sure like the guys one. But the question is,who is the guy tat I like the most??Well, this one i should keep secret for this,cos this's blog,I wouldn't said one.XD

PS:if u wAN TO noe who I like,pls contact me personally~~~~lol...:-)